quieter mornings, louder brain
we have had a couple of weeks of reprieve at work. it won't last long, but the mornings have been much quieter for me. %%yellow%%the benefit is a little less stress, but that seems to come at a cost%%. usually, i wake up with my little coffee routine and mentally prepare myself for the problem solving i have ahead. when there aren't any problems, my brain seems to overreact and wants to either find problems or cause them.
to try and alleviate this, i push myself for training in dax for powerbi. i am trying to improve at this, but i must say as much as i dislike microsoft, dax is absolutely horrible and is the icing on the cake of an already terrible company and software stack. i miss sql. uff, never thought i would have to ever say that.
%%red%%quieter mornings mean louder brain%%. finding coping mechanisms within the work environment isn't always easy, but i am surviving. it makes me think about why my brain thrives in chaos, and why i can't just relax. oh adhd, you are a silly beast.
%%green%%the silver lining is that i also have time to stretch%%! i recently found out that due to multiple shoulder dislocations, i now have bicep tendinitis. so i need time to stretch, exercise, and work on healing it gently. the beauty of getting older i suppose. wait, is that even a silver lining? maybe ... i suppose any chance to be standing and active during a workday feels like a silver lining moment.